Same as you, I was about 5 months pregnant and totally excited about learning of my child’s sex, when I was informed about the possibility of him having a genetic disorder. It was hard, confusing and very frustrating.
I decided to not to have the amniocentesis done, I wasn’t strong enough to know for sure, so I decided instead to believe that it was all a mistake.
Four months after, my child was born. Even I wasn’t ready to hear of his diagnosis, he was born with Down syndrome. I wasn’t prepared for that moment, no one really is, and it took me several weeks and even months to get used to the terminology, to the special needs related to his condition, but especially to the realization that beyond the diagnosis, that child was mine, and there’s no more perfect, and more amazing human being than him to me.
I don’t think there’s a right or wrong answer in these cases, having or not the amniocentesis is a very personal decision, as it’s for many, to keep or not the pregnancy. Anyway, I’m very happy you did, and very proud of you for giving up one of the most important moments of your life (your graduation), for taking care of yourself and your baby. I hope your example will touch the hearts of many, who decide to not to give their own child the opportunity to be born, and change their lives for ever, in the most wonderful and magical way: with true love, a non different love from any other, instead, the exact same love.
Well, just wanted to tell you this before chapter 14, just because I’m sure everything will be ok with your baby. It’s still not usual to give birth to a child with special needs on a TV show. I guess that would be another story, but at least, it’s good to know that we are giving the 1st step to creating awareness, by taking the news with responsibility and hope, as you did.
And by the way, I have two children, my son who was born on April 2014 and will be 11 years old soon, and my daughter who was born three years after; Ayelén, who’ll be 8 years old in the next couple of weeks, and was also born with Down syndrome. Besides the choice of having or not he amnio to confirm their diagnosis, I’m happy because they are here and I never took their lives as a choice, because their diagnosis doesn’t change the fact that they are my children, and that I love them with all my heart.
Good luck tonight!